for u.

This post is for my roommate. I choose to write it here because I know if we talk about this issue face to face, we will have a big argument and situation will be worsens.

Reached hostel, feeling tired and hungry, I open the door, I found an empty room and you are not in the room. You went out but you didn’t inform me. Where you go? Who are u with? Lots of question started to pop up.

Instead of informing parents, I called you. In my expectation, you didn’t answer the phone. Okay. I thought you will inform our parents so I called mom. I am worry about you, I want to know where are u. And that is how they found out you went out. I don’t purposely call them to tell them “Hey! Sister went out!”

Then I went to downstairs to take my dinner, I received a phone call from you, fiercely scolding me. You accused me for telling dad, you said I am making your image bad, you said I will tell dad everything, and you asked :”Why? Can’t I go out for dinner?!” We had a big argument and I told you I didn’t purposely tell dad that you went out. I called them because there is possibility you will inform them. I don’t want to scold u before getting things clear to avoid you said such thing to me :”I already inform dad/mom! Why I have to inform you?! Don’t be so busybody okay?” This scene happened before and I feel bad bout that. That is why I make a phone call to ask them.

I keep emphasize the point of “I called them because I am not informed that you went out and I thought you will inform them! I JUST WANT TO BE INFORMED!” Do you know how worry am I?

But somehow I don’t know whether you are deaf or you just cannot hear the sentences. And you keep repeating :”You are trying to make my image bad, why are you controlling me, why can’t I go out, why you tell dad?!!!”

If your friends are around you, what will they think? You have a sister that trying her best to report everything to your dad so that they will have a statement “You are very naughty” in their mind.

That is why I ask you to say it loud :”Because I didn’t inform you so you called dad.” But you didn’t. (or you dare not?)
Dad knows you. You will sure grab every chance to go out. Now you are not within their control area. So me, as a sister and the only family member here, is now your guardian.

He told me that you agreed a rule that is from Monday to Friday you won’t be going out, and your meals will be settled around this area. I know you won’t be that obedient and obey this rule. For you, this is impossible. I know your attitude. You will sure say:”How? You want me to eat at cafeteria everyday is it?”

You know you are not going to follow this rule.

Then why agree? Why don’t you do some negotiation?
This also proved that by the time you made this agreement, you are not serious it, just to 'fu yan' my dad. And also to convince him that you can come here to study.

I understand you. Even me myself can’t stand for eating in the same place 5 days continuously. But that is not impossible. Everyone who stays in this hostel know the cafeteria is a decent place to dine and there are A LOT of choices of food, some more all the food is nice. And I will allow you to go once or twice a week. However, you want to go out, you can find any reason.

Please lah, bear in mind that why dad set this rule for you. Look at your result and most important thing is your result towards studies.
If you behave well, why are these strict rules set?
For a normal family, probably you don’t have a chance to continue study but have to come out to work. You are so lucky enough to have a parents that willing to pay RM10k++ per year to let you continue the study because they think you deserve one more chance. They want to be fair with you.

Dad & Mom wants me to guard you even though they know you won’t satisfy with my guardian. But they hope I can do the best. I have no intention to break down your image. So please don’t repeat and emphasize to everyone that I am an evil, trying to make you a very naughty and untame one.
And don’t worry, they knew you love to hang around that is why I have this job to jaga you and to inform to them.

Why I want to waste my time to call you, call them, complains as I have a lot of assignments and subjects to study? I want to score a scholarship so I have to put in more efforts and time in my studies. Why I am doing that? I can just sit down, rest and do my stuff instead of worrying you and what, complain to my parents?! Think yourself.

Your accusation towards me had badly hurt me so don’t be freaked out with this blog post.

Last but not least, like what I’ve emphasized in the phone call, I just want to be informed.