R.I.P Lilo January 2004 ~ 14th June 2011.

"Baby Lilo, 7 years in my life, you've been a really great, adorable, darling little rabbit. You've brought so much joy to my life and so much of beautiful memories. Although it's too fast for us to accept that. Maybe God knows u are a very good one so he took you from us quick and easy. Hope you will meet your bestie ahlaw in your after life. Again, R.I.P with all our love."

"So much of memories and tears keep flowing out when going through all her photos & videos. Why I am not with her during her last moment. Finally she left us. Finally. 7 years is out of a rabbit's average life span. She's the most obedient rabbit in the house. Never create problem and also my dad's favourite. How I wish I'm home now."

Instead of mourning over her on facebook, it's better to do it on my very own space.

Read it all, will you? Just wanna let everyone know how great a rabbit she was. Don't ever think she is JUST a rabbit. Whoever that owned a pet know it means more than everything, especially it is with us for years.

Lilo is dead. Dead in the most unexpected car accident.
While my mom was entering the car park, she drove too fast and the car rolled over our old Lilo. Lilo was too old to run away quickly, it was too slow and too late.
As I always tell you guys, rabbit scream when they sense death.

Mom heard a scream. Her heart sunk because she knew she hit something and she really wish it is a stray cat. Rushed out from the car quickly and saw her baby Lilo laying there, half body flat and crushed. Her very dear baby Lilo.

Lilo screamed, struggled, and then motionless. She's gone.


Next, my mom screamed, stood there staring at the body paniky. Dad & bro rushed out from the house when they heard it. They were both stunned and sadden. Everything happened too fast. No time to realize and avoid. ='(



That's really disheartening and the news utterly crushed my heart too. Well, I was in the car, sending shen yee back to get her car then my mom called. Her tone was down and depressed, I knew she is gonna tell me something bad.

She told me that tragedy, I hung up because we can barely talk about it anymore. The few minutes I was trying to accept the truth and at the same time hope it is just a prank. But mom don't make jokes like this.
Shen yee was in my car and I started to cry. On my way back to my room I can't control but keep crying because I just miss her so much.
And also feeling guilty for not having more time with her.

I had the urge to drive back immediately to attend her funeral but I'm 300km far from her and I can't leave things here undone.


I wholeheartedly hope I was there with my family when they found out she was dead. I want to be there to share the pain & sorrow, and to bid the last goodbye to my baby Lilo. I don't care how terrible if I witness it.

Lilo's gone.

She's gone forever, to a place we human believed in it's existence, heaven.

This is tearing piece of my heart away. How I wish I could hug her and say :"Baby it's not painful, mommy is here, just go away peacefully."

I don't blame my mom at all. I believe that she is thousand of times more guilty and sad than us.
She loves Lilo as much as any of us do. When I'm not around, she fed her everyday, got her fresh cabbage, washed her cage and observed her in case she is sick again.
This accident is like taking away her daughter from her. Somehow it killed her mentally too. Imagine the shocked she experienced when she got down from the car and saw Lilo under her tyre. Her heart is much more painful that I could ever imagine.



BUT, WHY.....WHY MY MOM IS THE ONE WHO KILLED HER ACCIDENTALLY. Dear God, can't you give our family a better option on Lilo's death?! ARGH.

AND WHY.....WHY CAR ACCIDENT INSTEAD OF OLD AGE? For 7 years of her life and it ended with car accident?! RIDICULOUSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So unfair for this little rabbit!!!!

Mom called me few times tonight. She sound really really really sad and keep on blaming the accident on herself. I don't know what can I do but to console her as I can't imagine the pain she is going through.

It is almost 2 in the midnight and we still receive phone calls from her. She can't sleep. Her mind is all about Lilo.


6 weeks ago when I left home, I pat her head and said :"Please be here when I'm back again." Tt works everytime but not this time.

My rabbits are free to run around the house. They are trained not to go out from the house and not to run under cars when the vehicles are moving in.
Like 'sprinkling salt on wounds' (Chinese proverb), we've been trying our best to prevent this kind of accident but it happened. I know accident means unexpected incident but as I mentioned earlier, I DON'T EXPECT HER LIFE TO BE ENDED WITH THIS ACCIDENT.

Sometimes you are sad of someone's death because he/she reminded you that moment of your life and who you were.
Like how Michael Jackson's death recalled everyone's memory where he was a super, brilliant star and they were all crazy about him.

While writing this blog post, I'm going through all the photos & videos that I have about Lilo.
I have a file of videos just about ah law(her original name was Lawrence so we called her Ah Law) and ah Li (Lilo).

Back in the days was just ah law & ah li. Two little rabbit running around the house for few years before Tutu's arrival.


Now both of them are died. The end of 'Ah Law Ah Li' legend. They marked my teenager moment.


Tears keep flowing out non stop while watching all these videos. She was so adorable and warm. No, they were.

So dreadful!

After ah law left us, Lilo & Tutu stick to each other until now. Rabbit don't show their emotion easily....... Tutu lost her friend. I know she'll look for her around as she does that everyday for years. How to deliver this sad news to her? SIGH.

It is just so pain.....



I like to spy at my home with the online security camera devices, and I'd be very delighted if I spot her. But now....not anymore. No more sign of Lilo moving around the house.

We lost a very good family member.



Do you know that Lilo has been a really obedient rabbit? Whenever I talked about her, I just can't think of any naughty things she did.

1. She's a super cleanaholic. While we are complaining how dirty other rabbits are, she is the only one who never see her in dirts or even a smudge. Lilo cleans herself frequently in a day and she cleans the other rabbit.

OMG, who's gonna clean them now?! They lost a great good mommy!!!!!

If I touch her with dirty hand, she'll run away form me, get a safe place and start licking herself!

You know, she kept her cleanliness until the very end of her life. Even though half of her body is crushed, but no blood were seen. That's how special Lilo is.


2. She never fight back if we try to chase her out fr the house. She knew she's wrong for sneaking in secretly.


3. She always let the younger ones to eat first even if they come after her. When ah law (my black rabbit) is still around, she respected her so much and always eat after her.



4. She had breast cancer, suffered from it and went through it. My parents always feed her some herbs that we believe can cure her cancer. Eventually all the lumps inside her nipple (she has 6, 3 of them were infected) gone magically and we thought she can live few more years. Who knows, she is killed like that.




5. 7 years old. More than a rabbit's average life span. We always wonder how long she can live and we all hope she will pass away peacefully. Maybe one day, she died in her sleep.
Sometimes I wonder how is she gonna leave us. But car accident is never on my list.


6. The ONLY brown rabbit in my house.

7. She had a nickname, Fendi because her fur is as soft as those on handbags (anti-animal fur!!!) . Ahlaw was Chanel because of the classic black and white, Fendi is something brownish to me. So that's how she got the name.


8. One day we heard weird noises coming out from the small room during our dinner. Bro & I went to check it out and we found Lilo keep shaking her head off the plastic. At first we thought she was biting it, turned out is her long sharp teeth trapped in the plastic.


9. Her ears are always cool. Every time I touch it, it is cold but other rabbits is warm. Don't know why. No explanation.

10. My dad's favourite rabbit. To my dad, my rabbits are monster destroying home appliances. Except for Lilo because she never bite anything. She enjoy my dad's super massage very much plus her being a cleanaholic, everything made her so unique and won my dad's heart! Not to mention that my dad put many effort in curing her cancer, as in keep feeding her the herbs.
He talks to her everyday..................... T_T

"EeKie (crying sound) I sayang her the most....." My dad said to my sister.

11. I heard her screamed twice but not the last.

Few seconds of the last moment of her life, I wonder what images will appear on her flashback. Happy moments with us? The joy & excitement when we bring her favourite food?

12.
She's the only rabbit who dare not to hop over the shallow drain. Look at the picture above, she was checking out the baby bit bit but she already had her neck stretched so long even though the drain is half a foot away!
Ever time we serve fresh fruits, all rabbits are very excited, run to us in every direction, doesn't seems to care the drain as they just hop over easily.........except for Lilo. If she reaches the drain, she'll stop, walk along the drain until she reaches the 'bridge' . So cute eh?


13. Last but not least, 'How I Met Lilo' . It was all fate.
Ee Kie & I were buying Ah Law's food at the pet shop and there was two little brown rabbit in the cage. One of it is Lilo.
When Lilo saw us, she reacted actively and tried to get our attention. So she got it, we went home and asked mom's permission (ok we begged because we WANT her). Revisit the pet shop and bring this little angle home.



First night of losing your love ones will always be the longest and hardest night. Thank you friends, all of you that did something to cheer me up, put a smile on my face and laughed.

She had a really good 7 years of life. Nice food, great environment to stay with and owners that love her. No regrets I assume.


Again, R.I.P with all our blessings & love. Daddy, Mommy, Eu Chen, Ee Kie & I love you very very muchie. Be a good girl in your next life ;) You will always be remembered.